You are not alone. I feel the same way!
I was reading the PostSecret.com blog this afternoon when I came across the secret above. I wish I could tell the person that sent this secret that I feel the same exact way.
I’ve been avoiding my relationship with God because I feel like he wants me to break up with my boyfriend and I refuse to do it.
No…I don’t refuse to do this. I absolutely, positively WILL NOT do this. And I mean, you will have to kill me before I ever do that.
I’m really starting to question whether this whole “one way to God” thing is even true. I do believe there is a God out there because I had a close relationship with Him before; however, how can I believe that a God who is supposed to love me unconditionally would send countless of people to Hell simply because they preferred a different orientation or because they didn’t follow a certain faith.
That is complete bullshit to me.
Why send amazing people to Hell for stupid things like that?
I’ve decided to move in with my Boyfriend. Yes, I am 18 years old (almost 19). Yes, we have been dating for almost three years. And yes, this is exactly what I want.
Last year was a real eye-opener for me. I had two classmates die (one from suicide and the other from an accident), I’ve had 3 family members die ( granted…I didn’t know them so it didn’t affect me too badly). But one thing I have learned is that life is so damn short.
I am sick of letting people, religion, and fear rule over my life. I want to be happy. I want to live my life the way I want to do it. If that means I want to move in with my boyfriend, then fuck you. I’m doing it! If that means I want a fingerstache tattoo, then fuck you, I’ll get it (…maybe I won’t, but that would be so fucking cool!). If I want to travel the world before having kids, live in a different country, work as a professor/teacher, be a librarian, get married, and spend an entire day in my bed…then fuck everyone that tells me I’m not doing the right thing or I’m doing something wrong.
Why don’t you go and worry your balls off about your own life and let me live mine the way I want it to be lived.
As for God, I believe there are multiple ways to connect to him. But I refuse to believe that “God” would want me to lose the one person that makes me the happiest I’ve ever felt. After all, Love was created by God…so why would he want me to give it away when it is so hard to find?
